CHANGING

I do not care how others perceive me.

How they experience me is always a projection of themselves.

I do pay attention to how others react to me.

This provides feed back to my own communication  intentions.

This awareness provides room for changing.

I know I have anger and lots of hurt for my own inability to communicate when confronted by the insanity heaped on me by Uncle Dick's daughters. That will take a little more time for healing to be complete.

In the meantime, I am grateful to be reminded that sometimes displaced feelings show.

Changing and healing work together.

WALKING

Not wanting to let recent catastrophe pass by unnoticed,  I begin with awareness.

Awareness of the enormity of destruction has been overwhelming.

Accompanied by a connection to our collective unconscious suffering, I shut down emotionally.

I refuse to understand what has happened because my interpretation is not clear yet.

So I walk.

When I arrive at the path along the lake,  I walk with intention.

Breathing in, I say "Present miment".

Breathing out, I say "Peaceful moment".

This walk from one end to the other takes 20 minutes.
At the end, I turn toward the lake and continue walking on the dock.

At the end of this dock is a bench for momentary reflection.

I walk toward the bench in peace.

Anticipating deeper awareness.
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